I've never thought of myself as a very fashion forward type person. For most of my life, I was one step behind on what was hot, my hairstyle usually being a "not". Then one day, my friend and stylist hit what I finally thought was a winning combination, style and color that I LOVED! My hair became part of my persona, my identity. The thought of losing it terrified me!
So, Sunday afternoon, I tried to "fix" what was left of my hair for what I knew would be the last time for awhile. It was a mess. Each handful of hair that would fall out was like a punch in the gut. "You look like a monster," I thought to myself, "You're falling apart!" It was time for a pity party!
I cried. I was angry. I was tired. I was defeated. I was annoyed. I had wasted way too much energy worrying about hair!!! Nothing I could do was going to stop this next phase, this stupid side effect! Enough is enough!
Before going to bed, I texted my stylist, "we've got to do something about my hair...". I then closed my eyes and prayed, asking God for some of that super-human strength I so badly needed.
Monday morning came quickly. I opened my eyes, had my usual morning pit stop, and then started reading my devotions. As I lay there, I realized that I was ready. Ready to move beyond the dread of losing my hair. Ready to move on to the next part of this journey. I was at peace.
I walked into the salon, Mom and Dad with me, and sat calmly while my dear friend shaved my head. With each buzz of the clippers, I almost felt stronger. My hair was gone, and so was that nagging sense of worry. I'm gonna be ok. What's a little hair?! I'm kicking cancer's butt!! God gave me that super-human strength exactly when I needed it! He gave me time to grieve and then helped me stand tall, victorious. And know what? No Wonder Woman undies needed!
Now I can ride in the car with the windows open without a care! No more bed head. Showers are faster. The time it takes to get ready has been drastically cut. No need to worry about hairspray! And grey hair.... whats that?! Maybe I should have shaved my head years ago!