October 19,
2016
Good Morning
Battalion!! I have to admit that Facebook is still rather daunting, so I'm
taking it slow. Again, I want to thank you all for hanging in there with me! I
have felt your love and prayers... I can't tell you what it means to be cared
for so fiercely. Thank you.
I saw Doc
Onc for a post-hospital stay check up yesterday. The thing that was weighing on
my mind the most were the results of the 3 surprise MRI's I had last week.
Turns outs, those had been ordered before my latest adventure and weren't necessary
(almost punched Doc in the face when he said that). Anyway, the MRI's were
clear (necessary or not). I'm pretty sure I've had everything scanned that
there is to be scanned... some things two or three times! Remind me to tell ya
about them taking pics of my heart sometime...hint: they don't put you out for
that and it involves a big tube down your throat! Don't wanna do that again!!
Anyway....good
report from Doc. I'm on a different chemo now (a bazillion pills twice a day, 7
days on, 7 off). I'm also on cholesterol and blood pressure meds. Just in case
that wasn't fun enough, I get to give myself blood thinner shots in my gut
twice a day! No more strokes for this girl!!! Last but not least, I'll go over
to the infusion center twice a week on my "on-weeks" for IV fluids
and anti nausea meds (had my first session and ate lunch AND dinner and it
stayed down!! SUCCESS!!
Well, I
think you're caught up now. Oh, and thanks for praying Dave. He's feeling
better and went back to work today.
Love you
all!! Still fighting and STILL expecting my MIRACLE!!
November 1,
2016
It's hard to
believe that it's been a month since "the strokes". I hadn't been
feeling well which wasn't unusual, but this was different. I felt like crap. At
some point that Saturday afternoon, the dogs had gotten out. I got up and ran
to get Brendan's help. I tried to tell him what was happening, but the words
wouldn't come out right. I'll never forget the look on his face as he tried to
make sense of the noises coming out of my mouth. I think I got the words
"dogs help dad" out. Not realizing what was going on, I just went and
laid down while the guys wrangled the dogs.
Now, the
next 15-16 hours are unclear. I remember waking up to paramedics and then
waking up again in the ER. Apparently, I had gone in to go to the restroom
around 5am and passed out. Mom came in, found me and yelled for Dave to call
911.
After who
knows how long in the ER (not at the hospital I usually go to) struggling to
talk, think or have the two match up, I was sent home. We called Doc Onc the
next day and he checked me into the hospital right away. That ended up in an
11-day stay.
So what
happened? I suffered a series of small strokes. Ends up I have a defect on one
of my heart valves (most likely from chemo the last time) that was causing the
problem. Terrific.
I'll admit,
there were LOTS of tears while I was laying there in that hospital bed. As if
cancer for a second time wasn't enough, now this? This wasn't WONDER-ful. How
am I supposed to shine through this? Is this really part of the plan?
Here's the
thing, a month later....I'm walking and talking. You wouldn't know by looking
at me that I had stroked. The cancer is still there, we're just treating it
differently now. Everything has changed but I'm still me. I'm still a fighter.
I'm still thanking God for every breath and every opportunity to give Him the
glory for all that He's done in my life. I've said it before... He's the same
God today that carried me through my first battle and He's the same God that
will carry me through this one.
So today,
November 1st, I'm thankful for my story. I may not always like the way it's
going, but I am thankful that I've been trusted with it. I'm going to continue
to make the most of it and believe that we will see miracles happen. I WILL
shine. I WILL be WONDER-ful again!
#30daysofthanks
#30daysofgratitude #stupidcancer #watchthemiracle #wonderwoman
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